Is this a pattern?

I'm going crazy. Really, I am. I know I should talk about the whats that are bothering me but I don't want to, mostly because it takes too much effort and I don't care enough. I cannot spend excess time with anybody until my situations are organized because otherwise I will bring everybody down. I already see the beginning of the negative influences of my attitude. I need to get my shit together before I return to the bubbly/happy person I am so often described as. I need to get my shit together right now.