To a healthy lifestyle...

Chilliness in the Summertime

I came home for tonight after my plans to work until 4 AM failed because I was ill prepared.
I came home lonely,
and throat clenching,
and feeling lost.
Behind
and stone cold,
and for once, not in a rush.

I am on my period
I hate it

Hes been coming back to memory
I have no idea why

Physically, I am doing well
and eating well
and very proud of myself for taking care of my body

But I am sick of the constant parties
with no goals with substance but intoxication

Where is the love? the love? the love?
Someone feels it missing now

I want it, too, and I just want to feel beautiful.

blahhh can't sleep

ready for stability