Ouch. Half of me died today. No wonder I was always scared.

These are a few of my favorite things

I like making lists a couple times of year just for fun, I enjoy listing out things I like. So here we go...

long hair, thigh high socks, new makeup with nice packaging, lots of pillows, my boyfriend, sunshine in the wintertime, coats, scarves, pineapple cakes, anything pumpkin, grapes, blueberries, iced smoothes, tea (hot and cold), my lesbian crush on Katy Perry, being active, singing in the shower, singing in the car, BEP's new sound, kittens, puppies, cute little animals, journal blogs, fashion blogs, hand made sketchbooks, hand made gifts, hot chocolate, dark chocolate, dancing in my underwear, pretty bras, saddle bags, black bags, brown bags, colorful bags, short skirts, black jeans, tights, lace up boots, Sara Bareilles, Black Swan, gold things, pretty vintage jewelry, jewelry boxes, shoes, Mark Salling, lace, bohemian prints, karaoke, La Mer watches, photographs, Josh Duhamel, photoshoots, Brooke's VLOG, our jokebook, walking rather than driving, autumn leaves, bringing a bottle of water everywhere, true friends, feeling loved, blahblha.

Love,

Vivian

Winter like Summer

This year around it is a different feeling. The season has arrived and made its present very obvious, but it still feels a bit distant. Nevertheless, the moods are different. The air is lighter, and between the grey skies are streams of light. There is no need for me to clench onto hope, because I am happy, and I am all around in love.

In other words, I couldn't be better.

Yours Truly,

Vivian Shih

Happy Holidays

This War

the warm air has migrated again

and we are once again surrounded by cold

I enjoy talking about the weather.

Self vs. self

Is there an end

to this war?

I can only keep fighting.

(why am i always saying that?)

I don't quite know where I am
nor where I am going
it's foggy here, but
i'll just follow forward
hopefully I'll end up
somewhere with genuine substance

wherrrrrrrre is it locked up?

on a turning point note-to-self in a completely different subject,
focus on color
because it is something I am good at.

Love,
Vivian Shih

It's been a while

The past is behind but so are the ghosts,
some say they haunt and some say they do not believe

I still do not know what to believe

Things are going good and things are running smoothly. I still need to set myself free but I am at last learning how to escape between the bars. There is this thing called confidence that is finally more than just a stranger. College has helped me open up and put me in situations that I would have never imagined myself in. You don't have to say it (ahem "you're growing up") because, smartasses, I already know. Here I am, named at birth as Vivian Shih. V and V are strangers. One is in constant change and one is in a never ending obstacle to better herself. We're polar opposites, but we are ultimately the the same person.



Peace and Love.

To a healthy lifestyle...