REMEMBERING TO THINK

I act on impulse often, and sometimes I really need to just come to my senses before I act. Stop worrying so much, Vivian. LESSON LEARNED. Thank you and Good night.

whatever

it means something to be genuinely be labeled a "friend" by me. Too many new faces. Who are you...you?... you?... It's a new world. Was blinded once again. Maybe I should put the locks back on? I'm unsure of what to do. Standing strong, like a boy on a big seaside rock, I feel like the King on the world (sometimes)...but wait, I've found a dent.

I need...something.

Love,

Vivian

I just remembered my dream from last night and it was about my falling in love with Zac Efron.

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

Who, me?

I really enjoy company and going out, but maybe I need to give myself a bit solitude and isolation for a while.

(unless I'm not the initiator, then I'll go out)

Just need to find myself again.

Clearing up the Muddiness

Finally, during my last week of break I can SEE again.

YES YES YES!

By that I mean I've finally got my head back in the right place

Aimin' for nothing but self improvement in all aspects.

Hello again, Vivian.

:)

I've finally recovered from my cold. NEVER GET SEASONAL FLU SHOTS. I spend all last week with my cousin Erica when she and her fam flew down to visit California for the first time in 4 years. It brought the family together and everything was perfect. I miss her already.

Gotta work hard this week to try and work off all the holiday feasting.

Some Things Never Change

7/07

i'm good at wasting time and tetris. i love to love and i hate to hate and i don't know a whole lot about a whole lot. i'm messy and i get charcoal all over myself and even when i use ink it ends up all over my palms. i like morning conversations at coffee shops and losing sleep to late night laughs. i like friends and words and cold weather and warmth and singing but only when the music is on so loud nobody can hear me.

I like sunshine, sunshine with rain, surprises, optimistic people, cousins, baking, making music, drawing, trying to sing, pumpkin, holidays, parties, beaches, walks, hiking, shadows, piano, night life, sketchbooks, magazines, movies at home, tight hugs, occasional solitude, distractions, margaritas, my best friends, being happy, genuineness, stories, grunge style, itunes, stars, quiet nights, focus, inspiration, Pixar, House, adventures, shows,

I do a lil' bit of self reflection a few times a year, one method including defining myself. So here I am on Christmas Day, doing this instead of going on a walk/run like I told myself I would.

I will go do that right now.

Happy Holidays,

Vivian