Rat Year

Last night I went to Paseo nails with Katie and Sarah Dee! It was relaxing, besides the minor pains and how the last workers basically kicked us out of the salon which it was halirioussss. After that, we went to Natural Cafe for dinner and I discovered the best smoothie ever, compliments to Sarah for suggesting it. I enjoyed myself (:
Tonight was the New Year's performance and Miko, Max, and Gracie were nice enough to accompany me. I'm glad they enjoyed it! (:
It was so much fun seeing everyone and their hard work, and it was awesome reuniting with people I hadn't seen in a long time.

I'm so disappointed in certain people lately- friendships and such. Oh well. I know we're only human. I wonder if I'll ever meet someone again that actually notices when I need a friend and cares.

I care too much for the people in my life. I guess that should be a positive thing, but boy it brings me down.

But whatever. Right now, I'm excellent.

Love,
Vivian

mt. freeway

My day began off with hitting my head on Brooke's locker. It was hilarious but I had a feeling that the occurrence would initiate a series of unfortunate events and that it was a sign that my day would only go down hill. During first period I ran into the corner really hard and that left a bruise, it was extremely painful for an entire minute which sounds like nothing but at the time it felt like torture bahaha. The rest of the day was fine. Lunch was fun and entertaining, but spending time with friends usually is. That is until 6th period...when I received my first test score for math in this semester (failing score) and 7th period when I went to the office to schedule an appt. with my counselor but the lady at the desk was completely two-sided; a bitch to me, a sweetheart to Annie. Way random! That was okay though too, since Annie basically laughed at me for the next half hour. Sheee makes my day sometimes.
But later on my printer didn't work, I ran out of time and didn't get a chance to stay at Borders to pick out anything besides Gatsby, my tripod and camera fell off my passenger seat which made a loud bang and distracted me from my driving-which caused me to hit an island right off the freeway exit (which probably scared all the drivers around me) and I think it totally messed up the tire alignments for the 3rd time :|

All that happened before 5:30 pm. But I was like whatever, It's cool.

Fortunately, my sister's fish burgers and my photoshoot with Jen totally made my day. Jen and I drove around locally looking for good areas to shoot, even though our tripods were annoying, my lense got all wet, and it was raining and wet outside. I thought it would be cool though, with the light reflections and everything. So we chilled and had cold stones and ended up freezing our noses off on the top of the freeway WIND AND RAIN. I felt like I was in the snow! It made my day.

:)

Love,
Vivian

I hate ups and downs. I don't even know what brought me down but I always think too much when I'm driving alone. And that short drive home caught me, even though coming home from spending time with friends usually pull out the best of me. The worst feeling is the deep fall that suddenly occurs after holding up a huge weight of happiness. It sucks to know you're going to lose somebody who loves and cares for you with all their heart from the day you were born. It sucks to think I don't even know him sometimes.

I'm learning to change and struggling to keep up with myself and my mind's waterfall. I just want to get out there that I am proud of all the changes I have gone through and that I'm truly sorry for anytime I have ever brought negativity in any of your lives and for how shitty i used to be and i promise you, that person is gone.

Hi, my name is Vivian.

On a lighter note, Jo, Birdie I got free pancakes at IHOP today and Birde and I donated money for the organization. I don't even like pancakes but oh man those were amazing, I have to say!

Hmph, Valentine's Day in two days.

Bliss.

Last night was wonderful! Just like past days again. I'm very happy about it. (:

Where did January go?

Life is as beautiful as you want it to be.

i'm trying to see every situation as meant to happen "everything happens for a reason". I feel a slow withdrawal from my faith and i don't like it. Too close yet too far, I'm scared to confide everything inem. I need a boost. and someone I can talk to.

blehbleh

it's so annoying how the majority of people i know focus so much on either fitting in or being "original". or fitting in by being "unique", and vice versa. And it's even more annoying when fake people believe themselves to be genuine by disliking other fake people when they themselves are not genuine. or more mature/better than everyone around them. i'm not making any sense. bhalkjs;lkj


i hate how i'm shy sometimes.
and school begins tomorrow.