Winter like Summer

This year around it is a different feeling. The season has arrived and made its present very obvious, but it still feels a bit distant. Nevertheless, the moods are different. The air is lighter, and between the grey skies are streams of light. There is no need for me to clench onto hope, because I am happy, and I am all around in love.

In other words, I couldn't be better.

Yours Truly,

Vivian Shih

Happy Holidays

This War

the warm air has migrated again

and we are once again surrounded by cold

I enjoy talking about the weather.

Self vs. self

Is there an end

to this war?

I can only keep fighting.

(why am i always saying that?)

I don't quite know where I am
nor where I am going
it's foggy here, but
i'll just follow forward
hopefully I'll end up
somewhere with genuine substance

wherrrrrrrre is it locked up?

on a turning point note-to-self in a completely different subject,
focus on color
because it is something I am good at.

Love,
Vivian Shih

It's been a while

The past is behind but so are the ghosts,
some say they haunt and some say they do not believe

I still do not know what to believe

Things are going good and things are running smoothly. I still need to set myself free but I am at last learning how to escape between the bars. There is this thing called confidence that is finally more than just a stranger. College has helped me open up and put me in situations that I would have never imagined myself in. You don't have to say it (ahem "you're growing up") because, smartasses, I already know. Here I am, named at birth as Vivian Shih. V and V are strangers. One is in constant change and one is in a never ending obstacle to better herself. We're polar opposites, but we are ultimately the the same person.



Peace and Love.

To a healthy lifestyle...

Chilliness in the Summertime

I came home for tonight after my plans to work until 4 AM failed because I was ill prepared.
I came home lonely,
and throat clenching,
and feeling lost.
Behind
and stone cold,
and for once, not in a rush.

I am on my period
I hate it

Hes been coming back to memory
I have no idea why

Physically, I am doing well
and eating well
and very proud of myself for taking care of my body

But I am sick of the constant parties
with no goals with substance but intoxication

Where is the love? the love? the love?
Someone feels it missing now

I want it, too, and I just want to feel beautiful.

blahhh can't sleep

ready for stability