It's been a while

The past is behind but so are the ghosts,
some say they haunt and some say they do not believe

I still do not know what to believe

Things are going good and things are running smoothly. I still need to set myself free but I am at last learning how to escape between the bars. There is this thing called confidence that is finally more than just a stranger. College has helped me open up and put me in situations that I would have never imagined myself in. You don't have to say it (ahem "you're growing up") because, smartasses, I already know. Here I am, named at birth as Vivian Shih. V and V are strangers. One is in constant change and one is in a never ending obstacle to better herself. We're polar opposites, but we are ultimately the the same person.



Peace and Love.

To a healthy lifestyle...

Chilliness in the Summertime

I came home for tonight after my plans to work until 4 AM failed because I was ill prepared.
I came home lonely,
and throat clenching,
and feeling lost.
Behind
and stone cold,
and for once, not in a rush.

I am on my period
I hate it

Hes been coming back to memory
I have no idea why

Physically, I am doing well
and eating well
and very proud of myself for taking care of my body

But I am sick of the constant parties
with no goals with substance but intoxication

Where is the love? the love? the love?
Someone feels it missing now

I want it, too, and I just want to feel beautiful.

blahhh can't sleep

ready for stability

The flood is slowly dripping back into my life and I'm just trying to swim myself away.

I'm starting to drown though right now, but I'm working on reaching the surface

Oslo in the Summertime

maybe maybe one day
Dear sunshine,
You are my new best friend
bringing me sunlight and smiles and tanlines and stupid talk
oh hey oh hey ima go and listen to some of this B.I.G

haha but for real, I am loving this sun. Today will be beautiful

I'm going to the beach. Later.

I am enjoying break I am i am I ammm. I don't remember when I started enjoying the sun, but I love it now. A day spent outdoors is a day unwasted.

Today was a day for myself. I went swimming, finished making my sketchbook, started a painting, and finished a drawing.

PS: I started a new blog for my work. Yes. . . I did it. Feel free to check it out (vivscious).

PPS: There is good in everyone, I know it, but sometimes my total faith in this screws me over.